Strangers again

Never really knew how to deal with post relationships. There is no one particular rule that one can follow nor is there anything set in stone.

More often than not, one just tries to ignore that former significant other. And the feeling's strange. Like how can two be so close a moment, and next act like the other doesn't matter anymore. It doesn't feel right and probably shouldn't be that way. But that's what most people go through. There is sadness in it and real pain that just gets covered up with the sands of time and the feeling forgotten.

Maybe that's why we choose to be alone sometimes. Because the risk isn't worth it when we spend so much time and feelings to make that person the center of our lives just to fall out of love one day and be strangers again...

Things that we wouldnt know

Few years back before I enter UNI, i was so ambitious to work in Nestle Company. It is 1 of the leading food manufacturing company in the world and now few years later... I manage to do my internship in Nestle but what you see on the outside is not the same on the inside...

Hahahaha.. after working in Nestle, all those shit thing start to show up.. Apparently the company care about the non management employee more than management employee.. For management employee the working time is from 8am to 4.45pm that is what had been statement when they sign the agreement..

But.. hahaha.. there is always a but everytime.. From my 1 and half month experience, i had never seen anyone of them go back home before 7pm.. Usually my colleague go back around 8 something or 9 something.. when there are too much work sometimes even tunil 11 something and not only that go back also must work IMAGINE THAT!!! lol..

You wouldnt believe it rite.. Such a huge company but yet the worker work like dog.. hahaha.. OH i forget and not all the department can claim OT eventhough u work like dog ur BLOODY pay is still the same.. LIFE ISNT FAIR RITE..

That all from me now.. THE NESTLE INSIDER.. hahahaha..

Eh WL lu emo apa emo la.. ku tak cari kamu bukan lupa kamu.. ku cuma tak nak ingat muka bodoh kau.. hahahaha.. :P aiya everyone is busy with their life la bro now eat also not much time wer got FUCKING TIME TO TALK SUM SI summor... Next time i allocate sometime for u la ok.. BUT for DOTA only.. hahahahaha

Perfect Company

Lately I have been thinking about the people around me. Be it friends, family, acquaintance or just strangers. I realized that I do not have someone who I can really talk to. I mean I do have people around me that care (or so I think) about my life but there isn't one that is truly interested with my life. Be it the mundane stuff, or things that I hold dear like my life views, the interest I have towards animals or things that I could not tell anyone because it doesn't feel right, like how I dislike certain things but don't know who or where to vent it out.

Sometimes I feel awfully alone (not emo) because even after so many people I've meet, I still can't find that someone who I can just be around with the whole day and still have something to talk about.

I think this life mission of finding that person is hard. And it doesn't help that I've begun to shut myself out from new people I met or old ones. I sometimes just feel that there isn't any reason to begin caring about someone else when it doesn't reciprocate. And it's frustrating when I'm just another person or a random stranger to them. I want to start caring for another and know that he/she is caring for me too. And that everything that I do, I'll think of them. And so will they. Be it a new restaurant, some new place they've been to or a new website they stumbled upon.

But alas, its never easy. Still, I won't give up looking for that perfect company...

The returned wanderer..

Randomly decided to blog-stalk my old haunts and was pleasantly surprised to find new posts. hahaha

How many years has it been? Lazy to count. Too late to do anything but yawn and type randomo on a rilly old blog.. lols

How far have we come since Form 6? Idk about you guys but it feels like I've come a thousand nautical miles. (its impossible to quantify human experience and express it in nautical miles, but I'm feeling poetic tonight. humor me) I've learned so much, done so much, loved and hated, gone places where I thought I wouldn't go.

It's been.. only 1221 days since STPM? (courtesy of the Dav's blog - he still has that counter ther. haha)

I miss Form 6 sometimes. And then I miss being in first year. Then second year. Then..

Grab every moment you can while you still can. Even the ones that hurt. Because
1) you'll never get them back. don't live in the past
2) hurting proves to you that you're human. and that you're alive.

Till next time..